Gotta Have Faith…

I was slack this weekend, and Monday – I apologize.

I am being attacked by cramps that would now only bring down a horse, instead of a rhino.

I am thinking of taking a small break this week on my studies, as Imbolc is on the 2nd, and I’d like to do research on all og that, and such. What to do, how to do it; what it’s for in all of its’ entirety.

 

I’m still a little bummed that I couldn’t do circle on Sunday, the fierce level of pain would’ve kept me firmly rooted to the spot, without the ability to actually focus or allow an encompassed feeling – something I obviously to need to work on.

 

Yesterday, Monday, was hellish. I didn’t enjoy any part of it outside of being able to spend lots of time with my husband.
My magickal little brother, Zas, is having a life altering surgery on the first, and I am very nervous for him. Surgery in general can be terrifying, yet he’s tackling it like a trooper.
Also, a friend of mine at work suffered a  huge loss yesterday, when a friend of his ended her 17 year old life. He told me this over our lunch break and it took all I had to not just bundle him up in a huge hug. So tragic.

 

I’ve lots of plans this week, before work. Up at 8am, tea and cereal, spend time with the hubby for an hour or two, then start on getting the bedroom really gutted and rearranged. I’m doing this in the hopes that I will be able to turn my old armoire into an Altar, for circle and general spot of praise, comfort, and link to the Divine. I am hoping for this 🙂

I’m also wickedly excited for Saturday morning, for I’ll be spending some time with my grandmother and getting a Kobo Touch e-reader! Woohoo! So giddy for that. Kobo has about 29k free books to choose from, and our HRM libraries allow the checking out of e-books just like any other paperback.

I am so happy. Perhaps now I’ll have more room for things once I finish all my actual paperbacks, and the only books I’ll truly have are the ones on the Craft and Craft encyclopedias! That’s very thrilling. I don’t know what colour I’m getting though – that remains a mystery!

I’ll be happy with any of them, truthfully, for I’ll have a light weight way to bring along hundreds of books, and no hassle; right now, I go through so many books that I tend to have to bring 2-3 with me wherever I go, every couple of days and that tends to add to the weight and worry that I take with me.

I used to be very against e-book readers, as I’m such a book nerd that it’s tragic… but I got to thinking; for such an avid reader, without a lot of money, and even less storage space… an e-reader really is the best bet for me.
So I am quite excited to take part in the e-book community this weekend.

Sorry ^ see all that? That’s how much I can ramble on with all sorts of books and such – which is also rather tragic.

 

I’m very excited to be able to arrange something for Imbolc, be it before work, or after (even at 1am on the 3rd), as I want to give many thanks and honour to Brigid, who tends to reign over Imbolc. I’d also like to invite her into the house, and into our lives so that our next few weeks may be blessed, protected and inspired by her.

When I first followed my calling of all this, way back when I started to know the difference; I had my first run in with Brigid. She often has wild red hair, freckles and a soul as deep as her emotions. She is a triple Goddess; representing the Maiden, the Mother and the Crone – 3 pivotal stages of life for a woman.

I’ve had many a person suggest that I do my dedication to Brigid so that I may use her for my continued time as a Maiden, then when I move into motherhood and again when I’ve moved into Crone.
I never wanted to, because she looks like me in more than a few renderings; I didn’t want anyone to think I was copying her to trying to embody her. Or to have someone compare the likeness to one that looks similar to their family pet.

It’s completely foolish, I know. I should look into doing research on her, to dig deep and attempt to speak with her; mind you, Imbolc seems to be my perfect chance for that eh?

I also “wanted” a Goddess that watched over the Autumn  months, as that is my favourite time of the year, but I look at my Lord Cernunnos and don’t give much thought to when he’s supposed to be active, as I call upon him often and regardless of season; I need to make sure that I’ve that sort of respect, faith and connection with a Goddess as well.

 

It was so beautiful yesterday, it was shockingly warm with a cool breeze, a bright sun in the sky and spring in the wind; I went out for my first break of the evening around 545pm and it was snowing. I went out on my lunch and 740pm to check, and the ground is completely covered, with the snow still tumbling from the sky.
How foolish of me to think that Nova Scotia wouldn’t throw us for a loop. I’m very pleased that it was beautiful while I was at home and out and about though, and only started going wonky after I’d been at work!

 

Ohhh, I feel so childish and silly! Like a child at Christmas. I cannot wait to get my e-reader; Saturday seems like it’s an eternity away! I suppose though, it is many an hour away, so the dread over the distance is quite reasonable. Right guys? >.> … C’mon, just humor me.

It’s funny really, as I sit here and talk about how quickly I need the week to go by so that I can get my e-read on, (that sounds really awesome) and yet my entire Monday shift basically flew by. Head in a book, deal with sporadic customers, poof!, break time, repeat until midnight.

So really, it is Tuesday, which is one day closer to getting my e-read on!

I’m getting my supervisor to email the gentleman at work who approves the devices that can and cannot be brought onto our office floor.

 

Now, side  note – While I was at work, the gentleman who gave me grief about being a Witch was spouting off again. He was talking very loudly in regards to faith, and berating another person, as well as me.

He was making quite the fuss over how Catholicism was the first faith and religion to ever exist, and every other faith/religion in the world is based off the devil having let you astray. I had to leave the office for a moment because it made me feel so physically ill. When I came back, my supervisor as if I was okay. I explained to him the past week of religious slurs that have been coming out of his mouth and he said that I should take it to my Human Resources Rep because things like Race, Faith/Religion, Sexual Orientation and Politics are things that should never be discussed at work.

I’m sure this gentleman is well lovely in his own right; however he has serious boundary issues.

 

Anyway, moving on, I’m sorry for going off on a rant. It wasn’t my intention.

With that though, any feedback to this post would be appreciated. I must take my leave for now.

I hope everyone enjoyed their Monday!

xx

 

Blessed Be, with Love and Light.

We Don’t Need Strength…

Hello dearest blog,

I apologize in advance for any spelling errors, as my laptop has messed off on me again, so I have resorted to using my netbook. It’s so small that you could fit about 3 of them on the keyboard of my laptop. So, bear with me.

I am exhausted, after having been so happy and full of energy today; being a woman, has reared its’ head during that wonderful time of the month, and I feel like I’m going to die.

I was actually hoping on casting circle tonight, to just sit (hopefully) and be absolutely one (despite the bone-chilling wind) with the Goddess. To feel her entire spirit encompass  me, feeling the earth rise around me, and to feel weightless. I was so antsy, desperate for that feeling, and now.. with cramps that would seriously take down a rhino, I may need to just relax.

 

I am back home, and am hoping for something for supper here shortly.

I bet it will be delicious, no matter what.

I will keep the circle on the board for happening for now, as I did take about 400 mgs of Tylenol Muscle aches and pains, which has somehow worked for  me before on these types of cramps.

The tragic thing? I had actually performed a bit of self-healing and hypnosis, and it worked for about 5 minutes, where I signed with relief, but I couldn’t actually keep it up because the pain was shooting down my legs, up and down my back and through my entire torso. So yeah… I failed horribly on that one.

Anyway, I do need to cut this short for now. I’ve a little something about Imbolc to write up later, but for  now, I need more tea, more water, my electric blanket, possibly food, and to just wait for the knives to stop poking my uterus.

Blessed Be, all. I hope your weekend was fantastic.

Connecting…

Yesterday, before I left the house to visit with family, I went outside and stood in the presence of Cernunnos and the Goddess, holding a stick of incense.
I felt so wonderful and taken in by the wind, the energy and the feeling of being a part of the most precious gift we all have – the thing that connects us to this life.
🙂

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Hiatus!….

Figured I should make you aware that I’m spending time with some family away from home tonight, so really, outside of maybe one random post, there will be very little activity by me. It will give you a chance to get caught up on everything that I’ve posted. I’ve had a couple people make mention to me that I post so frequently, with so many questions and topics at once, that it can be confusing.

So take this time to really dig deep! 🙂

See you soon!
Blessed Be, and have a wonderful weekend!

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