I Refuse To Believe This…

There is no way, (and no I can’t bring myself to google it) that this shit is happening right now.

What about the man who raped me, when I was a very young age of 6? Is it a “good” thing he passed away before I told anyone because at least that way the rest of his miserable life wouldn’t be made any less promising or enjoyable?
Fuck you, CNN. A giant fuck you.

I refuse to accept any of this.

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Tweedle Dum, Tweedle Dee…

Again, I disappeared and neglected my readers.
MY BAD.

I get into such a rut at work and at home, always on the move and then being too lazy to do anything, including type.

Lots of things have happened since my last post.

First, being that S went away to Cuba (see her blog, ) and left me here for MANY DAYS all alone.
I joke.
And side note, I looked outside from my desk and watched a very large, waddling man, in nothing but a t-shirt, vest and shorts, amble into the crosswalk. Dude, it’s -12 right now. Put clothes on.

Anyway, yes, she left. I spent time at mum’s and R’s because of work. I’ve been so busy it’s foolish, and am now back at work feeling overly blahhh.

I’ve not had any M time in ages, I’m beginning to feel like we’re in this super difficult long distance relationship or something. Frig lol.
Oh well, we’ll see how this week goes for M time, seeing as how I am working days for the next two weeks, which means off no later than 5pm and the ability to go home and sleep at a reasonable hour like most human beings. Squee.

I don’t feel very funny today, although I’ve been told I still am. Odd.

I was told the other day, by a friend of mine in recent weeks, B, that he loves me. It was very awkward. It’s not true, because he was drunk out of his mind, but he sent me a voiceclip over BBM stating that he loves me. I just about choked on my tea when I listened to it.

It’s different.

I’m all over the place today, can you tell? Bizarre!

I want to go home and sleep already. It’s only going on 10am, and I’m here til 4… I need to buckle down big time. I’m thinking of going to the little strip-mall for lunch and getting something from the bistro, or just cheaping out and going to subway for a small ham deli round.

We’ll see about that too.

I am SUPER upset, by the way, because my Kobo Glo has frozen. it’s been frozen since thursday of last week, and every reset I’ve tried, won’t work and it’s just being an arse.

HELP ME. I’ve googled and have used them before and done the resets and such and it’s always worked, but this time it’s not working.
VERY UPSET, given books are my first true love, and still my true love. Heart-mates, if you will.

Anywayyyyy.
OMG, I’m speaking with my baby brother Z, (see his blog too ) on WhatsApp and I told him how I wanna go to subway for lunch, and now my tummy is growling, and you know what? I want SOUP.
I don’t even want a sandwich. I want SOUP. Like, creamy, stogged full of veggies, soup. Oh my gentle jesus… It’s bad enough my first break is still another 35 minutes away, let alone the lunch. Ohhhhh goodness.

Now L, at work, and I are talking about how we need more sleep. She’s on about how we need to just be able to have RollOver sleep – like RollOver minutes.
Man, I wish. don’t sleep for a week, then just sleep for a weekend and Poof, instantly stocked up on sleep.
And how fading out from the red to the black is just your eyes going from red, to the dark circles under your eyes.

This is why I stay here at this job; the people I work with haha, we’re fantastic.

I must leave you know and get some more tea, because I’m a rebel like that.

I’ll be posting later, because I’m again, a rebel.
Not so much as the baby brother, Z though. Because he’s like ulti-rebel.
Yeah boy.

Take care! :p
xxx

My Bad…

I hate that I keep randomly disappearing and losing the will to blog; mostly because I get so busy that I can’t even keep myself straight. Urgh. 

 

So, I did want to have a big old talk, a huge discussion, but I was BUSY when I thought of how I wanted to go about it. Of course. 

 

I guess I’ll fall back on the show that I’ve been watching most of the day: The 4400. 
I’m not sure if anyone here as watched it, but it’s amazing. 

As I told Z earlier today, I am now very skeptical about watching new shows. There have been people in my life that have demanded I watch certain things that I didn’t enjoy, that I had to force myself to get through, every godforsaken episode. And at the end of each, they’d ask if I enjoyed it, and I found myself lying right to their face, saying I enjoyed every second. 

Because of this, there are very few shows that I will watch upon the insistence of whomever states I absolutely -have- to. 

Moving from this, I have signed up for Netflix, and will try out anything I see on there, but if it doesn’t completely capture me within the first 10 minutes, I basically tell it to fuck off and move onto something else. Something I know I will enjoy, something that someone else has told me will be worth it, OR something that just feels pretty okay. 

This show, the 4400, is amazing. It blows my mind every episode, and is so deep, complex and connected… I love it. 

I am actually quite upset that I am on the last season of it; why it ended after 4 seasons, I will never know because I can’t be arsed to see why the end. 

 

I’m posting this from my laptop, not my netbook or computers at work. The harddrive has fried, given all the gaming that took place on it and the amount it was abused by said gaming habits, having it run 24/7. I’ve factory reset it and such, and it’s so far running well. I’ve not installed anything on it, and don’t have the intention of doing so. Just want it for blogging and Netflix; that’s all I seem to frigin do lately outside of working and reading. 

 

I do need to get to sleep soon, given that I have to wake up at 545, and be on the bus for 630. I will need tea and even a granola bar for a small breakfast. 

I could do with some tea now, but it’s almost 10pm, and I want to sleep well. I may grab a quick little something to eat, even though it’s after 8pm. 

 

Anyway… just wanted to really get a post done on this before it potentially dies. 

Enjoy your evening loves x I’ll post asap.